Hey Rachael I would just like to write a message to you from yourself.
I want you to know that you are strong and when I think about you and what you have been through, what you have battled, what you have achieved in life I think wow..
Wow because life has hurt you.
Wow because it would of been easier to fall to the floor and give up.
Wow because you have been down the path of self destruction and instead of staying on that deadly but security blanket safe path you turned the corner onto change.
Wow because you survived the cruelty of being bullied and pulled apart by lost Teenagers.
Wow because even though School scared the shit out of you, you rised above and became School Captain at your new school.
Wow because you lost a parent at such a young age and instead of letting it break you instead you let it help you grow and always kept a positive mind set.
Wow because even though you have been through a couple of toxic relationships you haven’t let that deprive you of loving again.
Wow because you have battled not just one mental illness but three.
Wow because whilst many people would of given up you haven’t.
Wow because even though you struggle everyday with OCD intrustive thoughts you can still manage to smile.
No wonder OCD picked you, your obviously the perfect target after keeping it together for so long there is only so much a person can take before they break.
What I really want to say Rachael is that I am so proud of you. That even though you struggle with pitch black dark thoughts that keep you up at night, that attack your mind and confuse you of your own voice that I am proud of you and I am not your OCD. Behind those dark thoughts is you, lovely, beautiful, caring you and just as you try to care for others and cringe at those dark thoughts that make you believe your a monster of some sort you are still underneath them.
You are still here, you are not them and you will get through this.
Please keep fighting Rachael, I love you.